Wednesday, October 11, 2006
apparently, if i nv specify who i'm refering to as outcast, many ppl will want to come forth and take the assumption tat he/she is the one. this entry i'm going to be critical in who i'm refering to. initially nv mention how many and who are the ones is really a mistake. it's like putting the friendship of other ppl at stake for their face. well, i'm gonna be damn frank.
it seems tat ppl tot tat the outcast i'm refering to is the gals. to be exact, there are only 2 and sad to say, they are gals. in actual fact, i do feel tat ppl like sabrina tried constantly trying to make this class a better one(even though i feel tat she seems to be giving up). and hui min trying to do all her best backstage. (applause for her effort and spirit) and further ppl like debbie, val...( note ... means there are more ppl i'm refering to) are interested in the class organised activities. i have nothing against them and do feel tat they are part of this class, although my relationship with them may not be as close. but do notice tat there are outcast in the class, at least, i should say, they choose to be one. well, who's always absent for all the activities planned out. watever the reason(which is not really put across well). and from wat i heard, some reasons are really unacceptable. it's just the bo chap attitude. just in case u all don know who i'm refering to, she is hui ling, the one liner. u may feel otherwise. but still ultimately, she herself know whether she do anything for the class.
as for the second ppl whom i feel is the outcast, it's better not to say out now. it seems to have a silver linning and i do hope that she change for the better. no point hurting relationship now. if i can make a decision to trade, i will choose to trade tat hopeless gal for ANY other gal or wat. (ps. i'm not male chauvinist or wat or i'm having problem interacting with gals, just with gals like her.)
as for the comments tat i mention in my first blog tat girls clique will disintegrate, i would like to edit and explain further. i feel tat confirm val, mel, sab, sue lynn will definitely keep in touch aft a levels, and debbie cy... will oso do so. but somehow someone (and tat someone i'm refering to is none other than hui ling) will distance herself from the rest. PLS hui ling do prove me wrong. it seems to me tat ur friendship with the other gals are very superficial. u may not think so. but down the road, u( as in all her other friends) will know. time will definitely show the truth.
my current post only intention is to express wat i mean in the previous post in a clearer manner. no point in denying the things i say, for if u look at things in other perspective u will know it better. they say efforts do pay off. but i don seems to agree with tat. aft all the effort shui yong made, it seems tat nothing has change.
the aftermath of this blog thing is tat there are certainly some improvement. people are starting to pay attention to the small details tat can really change a person's day. really happy to c tat ppl are starting to greet each other good morning and bid farewell in the class today. and ppl are talking in a more polite manner, although tension are quite high. such little actions do show the other party respect, and for me, i personally appreciate such little actions. the class will definitely improve aft each other feelings are declared. although many are put across in a harsh manner. although it's only like 2more days til the end, all is not lost. (hopefully)
Zhi yan
dived at 10/11/2006 06:18:00 PM.
