Sunday, January 13, 2008
ah! something interesting to talk abt. i think i can talk abt this the whole day. i better write this today... lest i got no time over the weekdays. haha who posted the last entry man! leave a name bro!
ok anyway. aiya i do think we have all grown old. even if not during jc... i felt toward the end of j2 everyone in class sort of matured. even if not then... maybe after j2. we all get a certain amt of exposure and suddenly it matters a lot to you how people look at you. i believe we all start asking ourselves abt relationships, friendship, life in general..tt kind of stuff. i don't talk abt such things to many people but i do think amongst your own groups... these issues matter much more now. it no longer is a 'hmph i dun friend you kinda thing.' so much more complications. sometimes things do get a bit fake. i must admit. its a sooner or later thing i guess... before we all get tainted by the harsh realities of life. tts why i wrote on this blog tt i liked zikai. his innocence was hard to come by. i'm nt saying you're childish or anything zikai! as in i genuinely felt you were very pure at heart. i dunno if things have changed but i do hope not! ok yes i do think we are forced to grow up. somewhere down the road something will hit you and you look at the world differently. it really is a cruel place out there and i think we all become very selfish. i dunno wat you mean by wanting more... being greedy and stuff(to the person who posted the previous entry. let he/she be X) but yea to me its more of selfishness. natural instinct? we all want to protect ourselves. X ah. please elaborate more on what you mean. but i think... stick to your guns la. depends wat kind of guns you hold in the first place though. i dun see in anyway how exposure will cause me to be greedy(materialism perhaps?) but if circumstance forces you to be greedy... don't be la. theres is a difference between having high expectations of yourself and being greedy. its hard to draw the line and i myself haven't quite solved this problem. how much do i wanna achieve before i'm actually happy. recently i've been trying to do things tt will only make me happy. like its not the end result but the process tts fun. jamming with my band and like gg for classes... they're all my interest and i guess i'm pretty contented now. i hope i'm right though. yay. i'm so glad someone brought this up. haha. some maturity in the blog.
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dived at 1/13/2008 11:42:00 PM.