Wednesday, January 09, 2008
haha i was reading through the older posts and stumbled back on ah rong's post on music. well if you haven't seen U2 go youtube and watch their live performance in boston singing with or without you. damn i love it haha.
mm... this may sound quite random... but sometimes i feel we're all so very fortunate. today i had a DXO applicant coming for psychometric test. he couldnt walk. as in really. like he will just crumble without his walking stick. to be frank his way of walking was so horrible that its a pain to watch. i cringed inside everytime he took a step. i don't think i'll ever forget the rhythmic pressure of his hand upon my shoulder as i walked him out of cmpb. dammit. its haunting. like i was trying to talk normally to him when so many thoughts were going through my mind. i have so many dreams and wishes in the new year but this man, hardly 4 years older than me, if he had one wish to be granted i think it would be to walk normally. its not fair. i felt horrible frankly. i was humbled though i was the normal one. his manner of walking... spoke so much more of strength. the pathetic and ugly steps that he took, bleeds of will and the desire to live, so much so that in his weakness, he is stronger than so many people i know. i watched as he clung onto his support while waiting for his dad to come fetch him. i couldnt help but think of wat kind of life he could have led, if not for that one defect. he was a really nice guy to talk to. but then i though that God had made him just as beautiful, if not even more than many of us, who are not in any way physically disabled. for all the unimaginable nightmares that he went through at childhood, the fact was that he was still there, standing. i faked a smile, waved goodbye and left. after that i was quite lost. hiaz. sometimes i wonder.
ah_shui
dived at 1/09/2008 11:06:00 PM.